and so your evolution sphere, I mean, I see this as my own Achilles heel.
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Like, I have seen how this particular shadow is like the shadow that underlies all shadows in my life.
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It's the thing that, if ever my judgment is not clear, it's because something is playing up here.
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If ever I'm delaying taking meaningful action, it's because I got lost in this dark forest.
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So for you, this particular sphere has the shadow of fantasy.
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Now, fantasy can obviously be a gift, and we actually see the fantasy in gift form when it becomes the gift of anticipation.
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Fantasy, though, is this attachment to something that is not in reality.
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An ideal that has been created by our minds of how everything could.
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Like the, you know, the fantasy of the perfect happiness, happy family of the white picket fence of the life of unlimited adventure and, you know, whatever that may be.
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we know it's fantasy if action is not being taken to bring it into fruition.
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Basically, like you, you are literally just going around the dark forest and you're not seeing the light.
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You're the thing with the dark forest is, I see as the thing that stops other people from seeing your light.
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Yes, you're struggling to see the light too, because it's dark.
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But the point of this call is that there is a light you're meant to be sharing with the world.
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The dark forest is a thing getting in the way of it.
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So fantasy can have us living in a world of ideals where there is such a fear of bringing any of it into reality because we know it's not going to live up to the expectations that we have in our head.
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It's going to have a lot of realities attached to it.
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The, the fantasy world or the outcome that we see to actually get there or even close to it isn't going to involve grind.
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It's going to involve things that are not part of the fantasy.
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Like things that are really bloody hard and annoying and potentially boring and a lot of mistakes.
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A Lot of falling on your face.
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And this is where fantasy and arrogance play a part, is that like, if you've got this ideal in your head about how you should be showing up in the world, that arrogance, which is this fear of how other people are going to be seeing you, is going to be the thing that has you go, let's not publish it yet.
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Because people could see, see my vulnerability, people could see that I'm imperfect.
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So it becomes this vicious cycle where fantasy feeds the arrogance, arrogance feeds the fantasy, and again, repression, the underlying wound here, the one line wound, is really just about holding yourself back and about continually looking at yourself and going, how can I improve?
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How can I do something different?
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And really it's just assuming that it's all, it's all on you that like, if you can't do all of these different things for yourself, like none of this is going to come to, to life.
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Forgetting that you're in collaboration with a higher power, forgetting that creativity doesn't come from you, it comes through you.
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It comes to you and through you.
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And if something wants to be born, it's, it's going to find a way to be born.
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And that whole idea of like, if we don't claim that idea, it will move on to someone else who is going to take that aligned action and share it with the world.
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So whenever we find ourselves attached, like living in this world of like where we're dreaming about the things that we want to come to life, but then we look back at our actual world and go, okay, what steps am I taking to bring that to life?
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And if we can't see much happening at all, we know we're in the shadow of the dark forest or their evolution.
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Moving into the gift, though the gift is anticipation.
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And so this is where fantasy meets reality, which is so important, where we are able to hold a vision of the future, which is why this is connected so much to leadership.
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The point of leadership, or part of the point of leadership is to be a vision holder and to bring people into a future where something has been fixed, improved, elevated, evolved.
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So anticipation is knowing that there is a better future that is possible.
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And it is grounded in the reality of the fact that it's going to take work to get it there.
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And it knows that this is connected to humility and the leadership.
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It knows that it can't actually control the outcome.
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So it anticipates this sense that, oh, something good is coming and it's not going to be disappointed when it doesn't look the way it was in your head because it never will.
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It will never look the way it looks in your head.
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But the beauty here is that it could look better.
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Something better could be brought to you.
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So when we come into that humility and we stop trying to assume that we know what's best, we have that anticipation because we know we're being called to something.
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And we go, whatever happens, happens.
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I am here to serve a higher purpose.
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And really this is where, that when we are in the gift and we're really connected to our hearts, the question always is, how can I be of higher service?
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When we're in fantasy, that's not.
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That has nothing to do with higher service.
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That has nothing to do with our contribution to the world.
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And the reason we incarnated, like, fantasy makes it about us.
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It's all about, like, oh, how can I feel good about myself?
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And how, you know, how is this going to serve me?
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But we stop caring so much about the outcome, because if it's like, well, if this is for the better good of the people who it's going serve, then does it matter what it looks like?
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What if they get the benefit regardless?
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What if you posting some imperfect thing on Facebook has just as much impact, if not more, than you publishing the perfect book?
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what if the impact of having 10 people who are holding onto every word and then they go and change their lives as a result of your words is so much more powerful than having a whole bunch of subscribers who kind of go, oh, yeah, that's nice, and.
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And don't really do anything else?
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So the, I guess the, and the, the question for contemplation is, like, what is really the impact that I actually want to be doing?
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Like, what.
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What is the true holy grail that I'm.
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That I'm aiming for?
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And would it be enough if I knew that I was able to live this life in some form of service for the highest good?
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That on my journey, I actually was able to impact other people's lives in some way?
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And does it matter what it looked like or the role that I had to play in that?
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Because again, coming back to leadership and humility, what if some of the impact that you have is through you not actually sacrificing yourself?
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What if some of the impact comes from when you say no and you're prepared to be the villain?
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You know, fantasy has us attached to playing the role of hero and savior for everyone potentially.
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But what if that's not the role we're here to play?
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Or what it's just what if it's just one of many roles and we're gonna like, part of the point of being human is that we're gonna try on a lot of these roles for size.
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So I think that's enough on this, to leave you with.
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So just as I said, whatever stuck or Stan, whatever stands out to you on this journey first, like let it be an intuitive exploration.
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If one particular thing stood out and you're like, whoa, that is coming up for me right now, then let that be your guide to go dive into this further and let the rest of this be a non linear experience.
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Like this is me just presenting a narrative.
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So we move once we have made it.
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It's not necessarily once we've made it through the Dark Forest.
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This is something that's important to be aware of because we can end up in the Dark Forest at any time of day, any day of the week.
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Like it's, it's not like we come out of it and we're out of it.
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Like I said, I've, I've ended up back in the Dark Forest at many different points and realized there was an element of Dark Forest underlying so much of what I was doing for such a long time, even though I'd been doing so much of the inner work.
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The next thing we arrive at though is the elixir.
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And this is the, this is your, the nectar, this is the balm.
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This is like the thing that is going to help you sustain yourself and bring yourself back to that grounded place of having the nourishment that you really need in order to keep going.
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Knowing that this journey is not some, it's not like a week long, a month long.
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It's like this is, this is your life, this is a long game that you're playing and we need to be able to make this sustainable.
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So this is connected to your radiance sphere in the gene keys.
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And your radiance is connected to vitality and life force.
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The thing that really like fills you back up and makes sure that you in tip top shape.